Laid Off… But No, Wait July 21, 2009

I should have waited until this week to give you an update on my life. So much has happened since my last post. On Thursday, I got laid off. At first, I was so excited. I know it’s not the typical response, but I was. As you know, I’ve been working on a “secret” project and I thought, “this is it; this is my chance to start my business.” I can take this time to launch a start-up. I have two ideas; one that will need funding to start and the other that will just need my awesome dev skills. My bf and I decided that I would take the next month to look for funding for the first idea, while developing the second idea on the side. That way, if I hadn’t found funding by the end of the first month, I would be able to launch the second idea and hopefully start generating some income there. Thursday would be the beginning of something exciting, something new. It was going to be what I was missing in my life. I was going to have it all. I was already day dreaming about how wonderful my life would be. I would wake up, whenever, workout, then go to the office (right across from the kitchen at home) and start work, in my pajamas mind you. Then, work until I got sleepy and start again the next day. And this would not be any ordinary work. This would not be work someone else asked me to do. This would not even be development using someone else’s architecture design. THIS WAS GOING TO BE MINE AND I WAS GOING TO MAKE THE DECISIONS!!!!!!!

There was, however, one down side of the whole thing; I would no longer be able to buy the new house. All the months I spent finding a contractor, picking out carpet, tile, cabinets, etc. would be down the drain. The years I spent finding the perfect house to buy, all wasted. And OH THE WAITING. I don’t like waiting in line at the grocery store much less waiting for months for other people to make decisions. But wait, there’s a silver lining. Secretly, I had already started to feel torn about the decision to buy a house. I tried to brush it off because I’m supposed to be “growing up, making the hard decisions, and living life more responsibly instead of so carefree.” But every time I thought about that 30 year mortgage it made me feel nauseous. 30 years is a LONG TIME. Plus I’d have to live there for at least 3 years to avoid repayment of the tax break. So was this really a down side? Nah, there will be other houses to buy and I’ll be able to back out of buying the house and no one will fault me for it.

Well, by now, I’m sure you’ve noticed that all of this talk has been in the past tense. So, I’ll tell you what happened. On Friday, my boss called and asked, if my job became available, would I want it back. Right now, I’m sure you’re saying… “OMG” or “WTF.” I know, I said the same thing. I really hadn’t given that idea ANY thought at all. I didn’t think it was an option. I began to think about all the people without jobs, and how could I just turn away a job? That’s just dumb right? So, I said yes and today, Tuesday, I’m back at work. I’m still working on my project, still hanging out with friends at work, still getting paid, AND I have my carefree life back because I’m still not buying the new place.

WIN WIN!!!! Aruba anyone?

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